I’m taking an unexpected, longterm trip for personal/family reasons. I’m being hit with a big dose of perspective; and in a lot of ways, I’m grateful.
In preparation for my extended leave, this week consisted of backing up my 3TB harddrive, containing all the 'Bittersweet Monday' files; digging up, exporting, and uploading/sending overdue footages for my dearest actors; re-editing a scene that I thought was not going to make the movie; packing & cleaning - all the while recovering from a long weekend of too much ‘catching-up.’
In my own little chaotic world of what is reality for me this week, I can’t help but to feel a bit uneasy and nervous about… Well. Life. For many months, I’ve been able to solely focus on my filmmaking endeavors, beginning from writing, then producing, directing, acting, and then finally editing my way through my past year or so. And just when I feel almost ready to lock picture, life takes over, and I must let go - at least for the time being.
Nonetheless, I’m taking all the work I can with me - gotta be ready for that moment of downtime + inspiration. It’s the worst when the tools are not available when you need them. I have a period of different kind of ‘work’ ahead of me, but I am glad I am available and capable to be there for my family when they need me. At the end of the day, there are only a few things that really matter. I’m counting my blessings.